Life

I have been incognito lately, here and social media. It is such a struggle to fight for everyday, somedays. Constantly searching for jobs, politely declined because I am on probation from my DUII accident. I need to do 80 hours of community service but they gave two options- both 8 hr shifts and like 8-5, how are people supposed to get that done? I have NEVER been in trouble in my life and dealing with all this, it's obvious how the system is meant to keep you down...that's a whole other subject for another time and honestly, too much for...

The majority of people do not understand why an addict will do almost anything to obtain their drug of choice. Modern science has allowed researchers to understand addiction in a whole new light. It reveals biochemical and neurological explanations of addiction. This contradicts some aspects of most rehabs using a purely psychological or moral model of treatment.

Yes, the answer is yes! I will, I'm pretty, absolutely sure I will cry. And it's not a pretty cry where you can still understand my words cry, its the ugly, garbled cry where people just nod their heads...because let's be honest, whose gonna ask a crying woman 'what did you say?' This is also the day you forgot to put waterproof mascara on too (it's a bitch to wash off, who wears that every day?). ...it's not the pretty cry It seems since I decided to go to a treatment program, I cry ALL the time when I talk...

So, I just took a pill.... a million times that is and I ended up becoming an addict, imagine that right! Something I VOWED deep in my soul that would NEVER happen to me. My mother was a heroin addict and it destroyed her life (she's still alive and we have no relationship), however, in the meantime, I and my siblings were punished/tortured for all things wrong in her life. Little did I know, there was a > 50% chance of me becoming addicted to something, granted it wasn't heroin but a drug is a drug and it knocked me...