Life — anxiety

So, I just took a pill.... a million times that is and I ended up becoming an addict, imagine that right! Something I VOWED deep in my soul that would NEVER happen to me. My mother was a heroin addict and it destroyed her life (she's still alive and we have no relationship), however, in the meantime, I and my siblings were punished/tortured for all things wrong in her life. Little did I know, there was a > 50% chance of me becoming addicted to something, granted it wasn't heroin but a drug is a drug and it knocked me...